Showing posts with label guilt. Show all posts
Showing posts with label guilt. Show all posts

Monday, October 26, 2015

The Storyteller - Guest Review


One of my dearest friends wrote this review for The Coffee Pot and I am honored to share it with my fellow readers. Her words gave me chills. Hope you enjoy!


15753740Sage Singer befriends an old man who's particularly beloved in her community. Josef Weber is everyone's favorite retired teacher and Little League coach. They strike up a friendship at the bakery where Sage works. One day he asks Sage for a favor: to kill him. Shocked, Sage refuses... and then he confesses his darkest secret—he deserves to die, because he was a Nazi SS guard. Complicating the matter? Sage's grandmother is a Holocaust survivor.

What do you do when evil lives next door? Can someone who's committed a truly heinous act ever atone for it with subsequent good behavior? Should you offer forgiveness to someone if you aren't the party who was wronged? And most of all—if Sage even considers his request—is it murder, or justice?


*Contains Spoilers*

Very few books make me sob uncontrollably, laugh out loud, and question my own morals, all within a few hundred pages. Picoult writes a novel that cuts to the very core of humanity by forcing the reader to make an unimaginable choice.

“The Storyteller” by Jodi Picoult is about a girl named Sage Singer who is presented with an impossible decision. Sage is introverted to the extreme; she works a night shift as a baker, has very few friends, and spends as much time hiding herself from the world as she can. She blames herself for the death of her mother, and feels the rest of the world does too. She considers herself a lost cause, a loner. That is, until she meets a nice elderly man by the name of Josef who comes into her bakery, and later shows up at her support group. Josef is a beloved member of the community. He was a teacher at the local school, he coached football, and he is lovingly referred to as the town grandpa. Sage and Josef spend more and more time together, and she begins to open up to him about her loneliness and guilt. As they grow closer and closer, Josef tells Sage his darkest secret, and asks her for an unimaginable favor: he was a Nazi during World War II. He wants her to help him die, after she forgives him for his unforgivable actions. Sage’s family is Jewish, her grandmother is a holocaust survivor, and Josef feels she is as close as he can get to being forgiven for his sins.

Throughout the book, Sage struggles with the choice in front of her. Can she forgive him, when she was not a subject of his transgressions? Can she kill him for what he did? Would that be justice, or would it be giving him the easy way out? What would be the consequences (moral and otherwise) if she decides to grant him his wish? She calls in reinforcements at the Department of Justice, and begins gathering more information about him. This spurs a much needed love interest for Sage's character, which provides the only happy ending of the novel.

Josef begins telling his story about what it was like growing up in Germany, how it became an honor to learn how to be a good soldier and follow directions. Josef always felt second best; he was an average student whose brother excelled in school. But then he joined the SS Guard and quickly moved up the ranks. The overwhelming approval he received for being tough and following orders only fueled Josef's ego. His need to please his superiors quickly outweighed any morals he thought he had.  As he is ordered to do unspeakable things, he begins to drink away his actions. He knows what he is doing is wrong, but he feels he cannot stop. He stops thinking of Jews as people. He justifies what he is doing by telling himself he is only doing what he is told. Meanwhile, Picoult manages to keep the emotional attachment to Josef one of pity, even as he describes killing men, women, and children in cold blood. When Josef finishes telling his story, the reader is surprisingly not left with a feeling of hatred toward him. Instead, I almost felt… sorry for him. Sage, on the other hand, is appalled by what she hears.

To help make her choice, Sage approaches her grandmother, and then we begin to hear the other side of the story. Minka talks about growing up as a Jew in Poland, where she plays dress up with her best friend Darija and crushes on her teacher.  As the war progresses, she is forced to move to the ghetto where over a few years, most of her friends and family are killed or "deported", never to be heard from again. She is eventually sent on a train to Auschwitz, where she is forced to work and is nearly starved to death. Minka is a storyteller; she has been writing the same novel since she was a young teenager. The story changes as she gets older and experiences tragedies. In both a figurative and very literal sense, this novel she is writing is the reason Minka survives. By the end of her story, I was left in tears. Literally sobbing. The atrocities this woman endured are hard to imagine, yet Picoult writes them so that you experience every loss, every pain, and your heart breaks for this character.

Once Minka and Josef have both finished their stories, it is easy to figure out the stories are intertwined. Both the reader and Sage are now more conflicted than ever. Can Josef be forgiven for what he has done? The point is made that murder can never be forgiven, because the victim is not alive to grant forgiveness. Should Sage help him die? He is an elderly man, no longer a danger to anyone. He clearly feels guilt for his actions, as evidenced by his need to become a productive member of society. Can someone with a conscience murder thousands of innocent people? On the other hand, can someone without a conscience feel guilt and remorse?

As she struggles with the situation at hand, Sage receives advice from the few people close to her. She is told that forgiveness is not for the transgressor, it is for the person granting the forgiveness. In the end, Sage makes her choice.

What would you choose?

-Brooke, St. Louis

Monday, March 5, 2012

Do Not Resuscitate

DNR.
Do not resuscitate.

Those were the letters that Dr. Elena Gardner wrote on her husband's chart while he lay in a coma. Then someone turned off his life support.

DNR. The letters that were written on Chester Pulliam's chart right before his life support was withdrawn. Signed by Dr. Elena Gardner. Except she wasn't the one who wrote them, this time.

Midnight calls every Tuesday to Elena's phone. Letters that guarantee she will pay for what she's done. A suspicious eye focused on her, waiting for her to slip up again.

In Richard Mabry's book, Diagnosis Death, Elena is being framed for multiple homicides. And the killer is getting closer. Are all of these threats connected or are they coming from separate sources? Mabry takes the reader on a trek through the hospitals in Texas, weaving in and out of patient rooms, forcing them to keep their eyes glancing back over their left shoulder.

The main character, Dr. Elena Gardner, is easy to connect with on a personal level. She's a woman who has lost someone very close to her and is still struggling with the pain that loss caused. Readers can easily compare their own loss with that of Elena's, bringing them closer to understanding the fears that hide in the pages. This novel is fast-paced, but doesn't omit the details needed to fully comprehend the plot. Wonderful read, especially for anyone who has interests in medicine.
Diagnosis Death on Amazon
rating: 4/5 cups

Monday, January 16, 2012

Our Worst Enemy

The only one holding us back from what we want, is ourselves.

Julia Quinn explores this idea in her romance novel, When He Was Wicked. Michael is in love with Francesca, who is married to his cousin, John. But when John dies suddenly, Michael is too guilt-ridden and absorbed in his mourning that he cannot and will not open his heart to Francesca.

Throughout the novel, Michael struggles with his feelings, allowing the guilt that he feels from his cousin dying to keep him from what he wants - a life full of love and happiness with Francesca. Readers can relate to Michael through his fear, guilt, and self-esteem. He's scared that Francesca will never love him and he allows that to stop him from trying to win her heart. How often do all of us not do something because we let fear get in the way?

Does Michael indeed deserve Francesca? Would it be unfair of him to woo the woman his closest cousin once loved? Or is he just holding himself back from what he could easily obtain, making himself his own worst enemy?

When He Was Wicked on Amazon
rating: 3/5 cups

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

A Little Bit of Romance

Grace, the daughter of a prominent figure in 1906 San Francisco, has refused to marry a number of eligible bachelors, swearing that when she marries it will be for love. Enter, Nathaniel, an Irish immigrant who applies for the title of chauffeur to Mr. Wyne, Grace's father in Denise Agnew's novel Love From the Ashes.

During the job interview he can't seem to take his eyes off of Grace, doubting that she knows how beautiful she is. Does he realize how against societal views Grace is and that status will not force her to give up her hope of falling in love? Could Nate be the man that she's hoped to find since her debut in society when she was younger?

After a week of working as Mr. Wyne's chauffeur, Nate has already come to blows over Grace. Another employee of the Wyne household let his tongue get ahead of him and the disgraceful words ended with him knocked unconscious by Nate's hand. Nate questions why he seems to be so protective over this 23 year old beauty? The answers lie in his past and in the guilt that he hides from. The hints that Agnew lets "slip" about Nathaniel's past and the failure to protect his sister imply that the guilt he holds in his heart will send him to Hades.

But could Grace be the woman to save Nate's soul?
And will Nate be the first man to accept Grace and show her what falling in love is like?

A little bit of romance will light the way to discovery.

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Lifelines

The world is full of truths, common phrases that we hear throughout our lives that we never take to heart. Taking what we have in our lives for granted happens to be one of those truths, unfortunately. We never know what we have until the threat of it not being there sounds off like an alarm in our head forcing us to cling to it as a lifeline.

In Edge of Grace by Christa Allan, Caryn pushes her brother to arm's length and refuses to let him come closer because he announced that he's a homosexual. The tables turn quickly when her brother, David, is the target of an in-home attack, because of his sexuality. Caryn is forced to see her brother in the hospital - beaten, bruised, and drifting in and out of consciousness. The guilt overwhelms her. Now that the worst has happened can she continue to cut David out of her life because of his lifestyle?

It's truly sad that it's in our nature to take things in life for granted. I know I'm guilty of it. And while emergencies are never expected and are horrible to live through, to be the ever-optimist, they do force us to realize what we have may not last forever.

Friday, August 19, 2011

Secrets of Skeletons


"It's anybody's guess what you'll discover, but the potential for discovery is always available." Crossing the Bridge - Michael Baron

It isn't easy bringing up that awkward conversation. Acknowledging the elephant in the room. In Baron's Crossing the Bridge, Hugh and Iris both take their time in allowing themselves to discuss Chase, the ghost that has been following them both around for the past ten years.

A brother and a boyfriend are not easily forgotten. An unexpected death can crush souls, especially when the heart is weighed down with "what ifs." While at the beach, Hugh breaks down and admits to Iris that he could have saved Chase. If only he wouldn't have left him alone at the bar, slurring words accompanied by beer in hand. Iris also breaks down and admits that she could have saved Chase too. If only she would have stopped him from going to the bar where he let himself become overly inebriated and then decided to drive himself home.

Feeling as if you could have changed the past is a hard obstacle to overcome. The idea of fate and destiny does nothing to alleviate the guilt that you feel, knowing in your chest that you could have changed it. It's a struggle to get through. A city with no map.

You, as a reader, can see that it wasn't either of their faults, but the characters don't know that. They don't know how to accept what happened without blaming themselves. And we know what it feels like. Baron takes us back there, the city without light, the words echoing around our skulls.

If only, if only.